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You’ll Never Know (how much time you have left)

When I initially wrote this song, I had no idea it would turn into the song that would witness the transition of my beloved dog Vegeta. Part of me already knew it was coming. Her health was going downhill very fast, and the trip to the vet was just a confirmation and a last attempt to keep her in this physical plane.

After her passing was complete and I got back to work, I heard something I never heard before in this song. You see, I wrote this song for my former partner, realizing that in our hardest moments, all I wanted to feel was his love. Just a hug, a smile, actions that are so simple and yet hold immense power.

But after Vegeta passed, all I could think of is how much I would miss her physical presence; her soft fur, her sweet smell that felt like home, every little detail I can remember. I don’t want ever to forget any of those details that made her who she was. And as I was hearing the song, it was like it was her singing to me! How could that be?! It was my own voice, lyrics written so many years ago, but she was singing to me: “In your darkest moments, my dear human friend, all I ever wanted was to feel your love, your embrace, your smile. But you were so lost, so consumed in your own pain that you never noticed.”

And I cried, so much. I’m still crying as I write this. Because I never thought about how much my pain (and my focus on my own pain) was hurting not only me, but my former partner and my dearest fur companion. She could feel the tension, the pain. So many times she was soaring high, but I kept my feet on the ground. All she ever wanted was for us to fly with her. That’s all our furry friends want from us, from us to live lightly, enjoy the simple things in this world, and to enjoy them with us, but I guess we’ll never know how.

Well, I’m learning, Vegeta. Thank you so so much for being such a patient teacher.

You’ll Never Know, out May 23rd 2025. Pre-save it now!

Time Stood Still… Again

There was something special about this song. I felt it when I first released it, back in March 30th, 2020. It wasn’t like other Sandra Bullet songs. However, I didn’t get it quite right. I remember struggling with it, trying as hard as I could to get the sound I wanted. I eventually had to compromise and settled with that first version.

Looking back now, it’s obvious why that was: Time Stood Still was never meant to be a Sandra Bullet song. Even without me knowing (at least consciously), there was someone else singing, someone else telling me that wasn’t it.

You see, before Sandra Bullet was born, there was Sandra Lourenço. But she always felt like a misfit, bullied at school, ignored at home, always the new kid, the one that doesn’t fit in. And so, she hid herself. She bought new clothes and built a new personality: confident, proud, strong.

Little by little, that side of her started dominating everything she did. But some could still see that little sweet girl inside her. Somehow, even in my darkest moments, specially in my darkest moments, that little girl was the one holding me, caressing me, smiling at me.

And now, it’s time to honor that little girl. The one that always dreamed to be a singer. I let her call the shots, and as I did that, she took ownership of Time Stood Still. It was the only pre-released song she wanted to include on the album because in a way, it was always hers.

You see, Sandra Lourenço sings from an open heart. And an open heart invites all feelings and even all sides of oneself, and so you will recognise the Bullet here and there, in a word or note. She will always be a side of me, a side of strength, determination and power; but she will never be all of me.

Time Stood Still, out April 25th 2025. Pre-save it now!

The Story Behind The Upcoming Album

My first romantic relationship lasted 16 years. We met when we were only 18, and had no idea what we were doing. But we loved each other, deeply. We were also best friends. But, on the contrary of what people usually tell you, that’s not enough for a fulfilling (or at least functional) relationship.
We were too young, too emotionally immature at first. Almost every argument started with the smallest thing, and would escalate into one of us breaking up with the other. After a few days, we would be exhausted of being mad and get back together.
Years went by, the arguments stayed, the break-ups were (almost) fully replaced with the silent treatment, pouting or hurtful communication, lasting sometimes weeks.
It was painful, but staying away seemed to be even worse.

Most of those feelings I turned into lyrics and songs. Strumming my electric guitar softly late at night because I couldn’t sleep, haunted by what seemed to be an impossible situation. Singing what I couldn’t say, many times while crying, music was my escape.
I released some of these songs (Passado Presente, Longe, Depressão, What Tha Hell, Time Stood Still), but others were just too emotionally heavy, so I kept them to myself.
When my healing journey began, I started seeing things more clearly; and with clarity, I knew what to do next.

With the break-up, came grief: grieving not only the end of the relationship itself, but the place I called home, the city I called home, the workplace I had built from scratch, but the hardest grief of all was grieving my best friend. Not being able to talk to him like we used to. And then, seeing him moving on so fast with someone else, building a family with someone else.
Again, I did what I do best: I transmuted these emotions into music.

Eventually, I started feeling more confident in my process, and decided to share not only some of those songs but also reflections about relationships, personal growth and life overall in the podcast “Reflections Of A (Slightly) Conscious Being“. And with that, it became clear that the next step would be a full album with those songs.

I struggled with that idea for a while. Some songs were incomplete, and others carried some messages I no longer related with. I doubted myself. Should I release such painful songs? Force myself to finish them, feel that pain that is so familiar and yet still so painful?
Then, I took a look around. So many people stuck in the same patterns. Feeling the same emotions I did. I thought about how much music helped me deal with all that pain, not only making music but also hearing songs from other artists, songs that resonated with the pain I felt inside. And then I felt selfish. Why should I keep these songs to myself? Knowing that maybe, one of them will help someone that is looking for a song to relate with, to cry with, to sing their way out of those tears.
This album is for all of them, and to be honest, for everyone else. Because we all felt unloved at some point in our lives. We all have felt abandoned, betrayed, left out, inadequate, not good enough, broken, flawed, stupid, ugly and so on. Sometimes we blamed others for it, sometimes we blame ourselves.

I am no different. We are, after all, only human, and that’s what this album is all about: human relationships.

New Release Coming Up!

5 years ago, I was just getting started on my musician full time career. And as every songwriter, I was eager to share my music with the world. So I decided to put together an EP with 5 original compositions, all by myself.

It was a roller coaster of emotions, and a landmark on my artist career. It’s a very intimate and personal work, because it was made entirely by me, song-writing till master, recordings and even graphic design.

Many times artists look at their first releases with scorn and even a bit of shame. Because of course, we’re so much better and more evolved today, and we would never release such work today, God forbid!

I don’t think like that. I see things that could have been done better yes, but always keeping in mind what I knew and my conditions back then. And so, I look at all my past works with love, fondness and a smile on my face.

And you guys too. You, that follow me, that sing “lalaia” so many times with me, live or online. What’s coming on December 5th is for you.

If you’re not already, please follow me on Instagram and/or Facebook, as I’ll be posting more news soon.

New Single Release! Time Stood Still (Kazumi Anzai Remix)

I wasn’t planning this release. My plan was to have 3 more releases this year; but something amazing happened: an amazing remix happened!

Kazumi Anzai decided to turn one of my songs into an amazing dance-floor hit! And then of course, I couldn’t stand still and release it as is; I had to make a videoclip to complement this amazing and unexpected work of art. 😜

You can watch the videoclip or get the song here: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sandrabullet/time-stood-still-kazumi-anzai-remix

Videoclip Incoming!

For a long time I’ve been planning on doing a videoclip for one of my originals. When I was getting started I looked around for professional help, but somehow I never found a person that I thought would be a good fit.
With my Bulletized covers I started experimenting with video recording and edition myself. I learned a lot, got better equipment, and now I finally feel ready to take this challenge. 🦾
My song Prisão De Sonhos was an easy choice. You guys loved it and I already have so many ideas for the videoclip!
Although I’ll be doing this myself, I’ll still need to get props and it will be a huge time investment, building the characters, testing makeup and hair styles, video testing in several locations, and then the actual recordings and video editions. Yep, I’m going all professional on this one.
That’s why I’m reaching out. I need all the help I can get to make this happen.
I’ll be selling tickets to a private live streaming that will take place on YouTube on August 12th, where I’ll be performing some acoustic arrangements never before heard of my original songs. All profits will go towards my video, and everyone involved will get a mention in the ending credits!
Tickets start from 1.10$ approximately, but you can contribute with as much as you like or buy as many tickets as you’d like; offer them to your friends or family and invite them too!
To buy a ticket just follow these steps:
1. Click HERE to access the ticket page;
2. Write the value you’d like to contribute in EURO (1€ is the lowest value) (if you need help converting your currency to EURO just check Google Currency Converter);
3. Choose how many tickets you’d like to get;
4. Click the button “GET IT NOW”;
5. Confirm the values, scroll to the end of the page and then click the button PROCEED TO CHECKOUT;
6. If you already have an account click on “Returning customer? Click here to login”, if not fill up your billing details;
7. Choose your payment method (Paypal option also supports most debit or credit cards);
8. Finish your payment and save the link to the upcoming show!
But don’t worry, if you lose the link just get in touch and I’ll send it to you. 😉
Thank you for being awesome. Hope to see you soon! Stay safe, stay happy, and remember, music is always the solution. Bullet OUT!

New Album Release On May 1st!

It’s hard for me to find words than can explain what this upcoming album means to me.
When I was 18 I joined a garage Rock band. I was 12 years on that band, rehearsing, writing songs, learning how to play instruments, occasionally also playing live. It became the foundation of the artist I am today.
Along the way, we made 15 original songs. When I became a solo artist, I chose to release my own originals first. I think I needed that back then, to prove myself. But those 15 songs were always on the back of my mind, like an unfinished project.
I knew I had to release them. 3 years ago I started the recordings. I started the edition too, but never finished it. There was always something else that needed to be done, other work for other artist, some online performance.
On February 3rd it was our 15th anniversary; it was on that day, 15 years ago, that I met them, auditioned and got the spot in the band. I also started my musical career that day. And that date gave me the momentum I needed to launch the album.
I couldn’t finish the album on that date; but I managed to release the first single. And I set the goal for May 1st. It wasn’t easy, being my first experience finishing a whole album. I made mistakes, some I managed to get around, some I made my best to attenuate. But like my first EP Longe, I’m very proud of what I did. And I can’t wait to share these songs with all of you. You, who always were there for me, supporting me, believing in me, asking me about this album.
This is for all of you. Because you guys are the reason why I’m here. ROCK ON!