It still amazes me how each song I release coincides perfectly with some life event this year. I guess it’s a good sign; it means I’m doing exactly what I should be doing, and living exactly what I should be living. At least that’s the way I choose to face it, and this brings me enormous amounts of peace, an inner peace very necessary through all these outside storms.
My Heart Skips A Beat talks about facing reality, to see through our fantasies or illusions. We’ve all been there: imagine craving that cake, ice-cream or whatever, only to get disappointed once you taste it. You imagined this amazing flavor, but in the end the looks were better than the taste. It still looks good, but it turned out not to be as expected.
When I was a little girl, I dreamed about being a singer, to sing on stage, and be admired by many. That dream came true. I love the stage, but not as much as I used to. I don’t want to be above people or to be admired by them anymore. I want to be at the same level. To show them that they too are capable of being extraordinary at something and be at ease showing that in front of everyone.
Even during my tour in the UK with The Cides, I started feeling out of place. I don’t like bars, alcohol, loud music or staying awake late at night. But once I got on stage, that weirdness went away, as I felt the music flowing through me, my musician friends and the audience. We connected through music.
“Now what?” – I caught myself thinking. I love music, singing, but I am definitely not the typical artist who plays at bars and drinks beer with everyone. So, what kind of artist am I?
I’m working on the answer. I’m a work in progress, as much as my album.
And relationships are much like that too. Broken expectations, illusions, disappointments. That of course, if you choose to focus in the Future and what will be or can be someday.
I learned my lesson. I focus in the Present now. To be the best version of myself I can be now, and to appreciate what I have now. The Future has a way of sorting itself out, if you truly appreciate your Present.
My Heart Still Skips A Beat, available in September 25th 2025 here.